… this grace in which I stand …

numbered list of short thoughts (15)

December 14, 2009 · Leave a Comment

1. If you haven’t seen Blind Side, do it.

2. I can not believe Christmas is only 12 days away.

3. My mom is in TX with me and it’s nice to get to share my life with her.

4. I’m no longer a student… at least not in any official capacity.

5. I get to see my brothers in 9 days. (I love my brothers.)

6. I have no idea why I am doing this instead of going to bed.

7. I wonder if they will ever stop showing re-runs of Friends on TV.

8. I hope not.

9. Same goes for the Cosby show.

10. I love good quotes that make me say: hmmm.

11. Here’s one:

“What binds us together is not common education, common race, common income levels, common politics, common nationality, common accents, common jobs, or anything else of that sort. Christians come together . . . because . . . they have all been loved by Jesus himself . . .. They are a band of natural enemies who love one another for Jesus’ sake.”

- D.A. Carson, Love in Hard Places (Wheaton, Ill.; Crossway Books, 2002),61.

12. Yep. I’m tired.

13. Going to bed.

14. Have a good day.

15. If you want to make me happy, write me a numbered list.

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Did he just say what I think he said?

December 4, 2009 · 1 Comment

Trip story time:

We’d been in our destination city for only about 3 hours when 3 of us decided to go for an exploration walk before heading to our hotel for a good night’s sleep.  5 minutes into our walk a teenage boy walked straight up to me and said: “Hi. My name is J. I like to speak English.  Do you speak English?”  Surprised, I responded: “Hi, J.  Yes. We do speak English.”  J: “Where are you from?” … The conversation went on from there.  I’ve never heard ANYONE speak English faster than J was!  He revealed to us that he had run away from home and was “starving to death.”  So, since we were standing right in front of McDonalds… we went inside and bought him dinner.  He ordered an entire tray of food: two chicken sandwiches, chicken wings, two large fries, a chocolate pie, a coke, and a hot chocolate.  I thought surely he was planning to save some for later or take some to a friend, or maybe he thought we were hungry!  No.  He was HUNGRY and he ate it ALL as we sat and talked.

We really wanted to figure out what this dude was about.  Is he scamming us?  Is he genuinely living on the streets as a runaway?  And either way… how can we share with him the hope that we have in Jesus?  So the guy in our group of 3 (Michael) asks some questions and we find out a little bit more about him running away from home.  I ask questions about his family.  The kid seems legit.  Michael asks him what he wants out of life.  He says he wants success: a good job with lots of money and the ability to travel abroad, like us.  We want to teach him that money and “success” are not keys to happiness, but rather a relationship with Jesus is.  Somehow we start talking about the lottery, hoping to explain that many people who win the lottery in America are far less happy and fulfilled afterwards than they were before.  But as soon as J hears the word lottery he freaks out.  “NO!  That is bad.  You should not do lottery.  It is not 100%.  It is not good.  It is not a gift from Jesus.  You should not do it!  It is not 100%!”

The 3 of us all look at each other with a “Did he just say what I think he said?” look on our faces.  We tell him we agree and do not think the lottery is a good way for people to use their money and Michael explains what we were trying to say and then turns the conversation by saying: “But J… You just mentioned Jesus.  What do you know about Him?”  At this point J tells us the story of Jesus from creation to resurrection.  WHAT?  We ask him where he learned this.  He says: “An english teacher told me.”  I could have burst into tears at that point.  We ask him, “Do you believe this is the truth?”  He says, “Yes.  It is true!”  We ask him if he had asked Jesus to be his Savior and the Ruler of his life… if he had made the CHOICE to follow Jesus.  J said: “No. I don’t know how to do that!”  We asked if we could tell him and he gladly said yes (as he stuffed more fries into his mouth).

After a long discussion about the gospel and it’s implications in our lives and the necessity of us each making a personal choice to believe, repent, and follow after Jesus… Michael asked him if he wanted to make that choice.  He thought for a minute or two with his head down and his mouth full.  Eventually, he looked up and said: “I think I could swing that!”  We laughed.  “You can SWING that?  Did you learn that in a movie, J?”  He smiled and said yes.

After a few more minutes of making sure he understood… J prayed, in his own words, confessing his need for Jesus as his Savior and asking him to be the ruler of his life.

Goodness gracious.  (That phrase has never made more sense to me!)  Did that just happen?  We talk a while longer.  J decides he needs to return to his home and apologize to his family for stealing their money and running away.  We ask him what it would take to get him home.  He tells us there’s a train and it’s not too expensive but he was out of money.  We told him to meet us the next day at 1pm so we could give him a gift and see if we could get him home.

He spent the night in McDonalds.  We met him at 1 the next day, as planned.  We talked through the decision he had made the night before.  We had been warned by some locals that it might be a scam so before buying him a train ticket, we wanted to do our best to test his genuineness and we prayed for discernment.  All of us agreed, the Holy Spirit is working here… scam or no scam… this kids life just changed in a genuine way.  So we went for the long walk to the train station.  We bought him a ticket and then got some lunch.

At lunch we opened up the Bible we brought for him.  Michael asked him to read Mark 5.  He read it and translated it into English for us to make sure he was understanding it properly.  It’s the story of a man who Jesus healed.  After healing him, Jesus said to the man: “Go home to your friends and tell them how much the Lord has done for you, and how he has had mercy on you.”  We asked J: “How do you think that this story applies to your life?”  He said:  “I must go home and tell my family about what Jesus has done for me.”

He gets it!  And we knew… If this is the BEGINNING of our trip… God was certainly going to blow our minds over and over… in a big way!

More to come.

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And be thankful.

November 26, 2009 · 1 Comment

“And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful.”

Colossians 3:14-15

Thanksgiving Day is upon us and I have so much to be thankful for.  Here are just a few things that come to my mind (in no particular order other than how they pop into my head):

God’s GRACE, MERCY, and LOVE!

Soft Kleenexes

Good Coffee and people who appreciate it

My family:

The humor of my brothers

The faithfulness of my mother

The support (and energy!) of my grandparents

Amazing TX friends who constantly remind me that I’m odd

A plane ticket to CA for December 22nd!

The Livingroom at La Jolla Cove and the knowledge that in a month I will spend a day there with Anissa

The technology that allows me to talk to friends in TX, CA, Vietnam, China, and Japan on the same computer screen at the same time – like right NOW!

Book shelves full of books!

Google Reader

Tortillas

Creative People

My ESV Study Bible (gifted to me a year ago by 14 of my fabulous friends!)

Sharpie Pens

Tazo Awake Tea tab fortunes: “Someone is planning a party for you!”

Scarves

The opportunity to watch God work in the nations!

The food that I will eat in 2 hours at the home of some great friends (Amber and Corrienne)

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so I’ve been to my favorite continent and back again…

November 25, 2009 · Leave a Comment

… and there is so much to tell you.  But I have no idea where to begin and I think it may take a while to get out all the stories and reflections that I have floating around in my head and heart.  So, have patience as I process and stick around because great stories are coming!

For now I will say that my friends and I (8 of us) spent 10 days making friends and hanging out with them as much as possible.  We wanted to learn about the culture and the people, and we did learn a lot!  Over ten days we spent time with somewhere around 50 people and built some really strong friendships.  We felt a great sense of urgency to share with each of them about the truth of the gospel of Jesus that has changed each of our lives and transcends all borders and cultures.  Before we left 14 of them had weighed the cost and chosen to follow Jesus.   It was incredible to see hearts and lives transformed.  (And I need to add some emphasis here… it was absolutely INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!)  Many others are continuing to seek truth and I will pray and believe that they will choose to follow Jesus in the future!

If I had to boil down, in one short snippet, all that I learned and am learning from this experience I would say:  I believe the gospel more today than I did two weeks ago.  I am humbled by the grace God has poured out on me and I love to see that grace poured out on others.  I am saddened by the many moments of my life that are driven by anything but the truth and beauty found in the person of Jesus Christ.  I rejoice that despite my endless imperfections and well, let’s just call them what they are – sins! – the Creator of the universe has chosen me as His child and has sent me to be an instrument to water and plant seeds that He will bring a harvest from.  I have a deeper longing to know God more and to make God known more – and along with that a deeper sense of my reliance on Him for all good things.

“So then it depends not on human will or exertion, but on God who has mercy.”  Romans 9:16

P.S.   I often use the term “favorite” to mean simply… “I like it a lot!” and not necessarily to mean “I like it more than anything else!”  I don’t know which I mean when I say that Asia is my favorite continent.  I like home.  I love home, really.  But there is something about Asia that makes something about me come alive in a way that no where else does.  That doesn’t mean that I love it more than home.  I don’t know that I could love anywhere more than home.  I guess it means simply that God has placed deep in my heart a desire to be a part of his work in that region of the world and when I’m there I know, “I was made for this!”

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if a camera followed me around …

November 2, 2009 · 1 Comment

I just watched this crazy reality tv show that’s filmed in the area I live in.  One of the girls on it is actually a customer of mine.  She seems like a sweet girl.  She’s always friendly and pleasant.  I saw a commercial for the show and thought — hey… I know her.  So the next time I saw her, I asked about it and told her I’d have to watch it.  She said, “No, please don’t.  It’s embarrassing.  We filmed at the beginning of the summer and now I’m having to relive all the drama over again.”

I tivoed it, of course.  As you watch the show you see drama… money… drama… possessions… drama… social status… DRAMA!  And I realize it’s reality tv and that reality tv is rarely, if ever, actually reality… but I also know that though it may be embellished and edited to get higher ratings, it’s still real video footage that does, at least somehow, reflect these people’s lives.  And I see why she’s embarrassed.

And tonight after watching it I thought… How would I feel if a camera followed me around during my worst moments? Om… yeah… No thank you.  What in my life would I be embarrassed to see on TV? I could write a list… and the thing is…

I want to live a valuable life – one that matters in eternity – one that pleases my Creator.  And there are things I need to change.  It’s easy to watch a show about people who are very different than I am and point out all the insanely wacked out priorities in their lives… It’s harder to look at my own life and do the same thing…

Yesterday I read a little bit of The Journals of Jim Elliot. I was encouraged and challenged by two prayers he prayed…

“Lord, I want to be centering my interest on Thee… Be then revealed to me that my desires might be fixed on the primary thing.”

and

“God, I pray, light these idle sticks of my life and may I burn up for Thee.  Consume my life, my God, for it is Thine.  I seek not a long life but a full one like Yours, Lord Jesus.”

So this week, my challenge is to remain focused on the primary thing and to be consumed by Him… living a full life…

And that is my random ramblings for the night.  ;)


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