a place of rootedness

Written 2/23/14

I’m sitting on the floor in the hall of our new house. My husband is doing some painting touch-ups in our son’s bedroom.

Those two sentences BLOW my mind.

I spent nearly 3 decades of my life husbandless and have had this amazing husband for 1 year and 4 months. I still am amazed that the Lord saw fit to bring us together, and make us one.

Now, this short time later, I’ve got a baby in my womb. [I think womb is a funny word and am determined to say it as much as possible while I have the excuse. You are welcome.] He will make his appearance into our world probably sometime between 3 and 4 months from now. That’s nuts. I have a child, a son. He’s making me huge, and kicking around at my insides this very moment. And I love him, though I don’t yet KNOW him.

And… we have a house! And it’s OURS [and the bank’s… but whatever].

When Jon and I got married, I moved into his apartment. So, we made space to fit me in and we/I changed and added to the décor to make it OURS and not just HIS. This feels so different than that. That was temporary and we constantly considered the temporal aspects of it. This feels like a HOME for our family to dwell in and to grow in, not forever, but for a good while.

This is a place of rootedness… and I think it’s a physical symptom of a spiritual reality.

Jon and I (separately and together) have never dreamed of being home-owners. In fact, we dreaded the thought. We’ve been mobile people who love the ability to get up and go when and where opportunities open up.  “Putting down roots” somewhere sounded lovely, but mostly for other people. When we began talking about the possibility of purchasing a home, it made us feel a bit claustrophobic. {Though I will admit, there has been a part of me that has always longed to settle somewhere.}

We also knew we didn’t want to stay in our two bedroom townhome apartment for too much longer and that buying a house made sense for us financially, much more so than renting a house would. I’m certain, however, that the reason home-ownership began to be less claustrophobia causing was actually spiritual.

Rootedness has been a theme in our lives and marriage. It’s not a rootedness in Nashville, and it’s not even a rootedness in each other. This rootedness is one that can only be in Christ and by Christ.

I know I don’t fully comprehend what He has done, is doing and will do, as our roots grow deep into Him. I know that a large part of it is happening through the Body He has placed us in here in Nashville. I guarantee you that if it wasn’t for the expression of Christ in our brothers and sisters here, we wouldn’t have bought this house and we probably wouldn’t be here at all.

It’s because of our local expression of the Body of Christ that we no longer feel claustrophobic in taking this step. I’d even go as far as to say that I am personally experiencing a deeper sense of Freedom as we take these steps, that once felt heavy and constraining.

Here’s to new seasons, and a beautiful Family to share them with. Happy 2014!


Q & A #3a // Organic Church Life

It’s been a busy few weeks here, but I’m finally back to begin my response to the next question about organic church life.

Today’s question:

Q: How does leadership work?

My response will come in 3 posts, starting with a discussion on finding the mind of Christ.

Until coming into organic church life, that’s really not a phrase I ever said or often heard. If I did hear it, I really didn’t understand it. Yet, it’s all over the Scriptures and it’s at the core of spiritual leadership.

I Corinthians 12 is a beautiful portrait of the Bride of Christ, the Body, the Church. “For in one Spirit we were all baptized into one body—Jews or Greeks, slaves or free—and all were made to drink of one Spirit” (v. 13). It is a diverse body. Full of a variety of perspectives and gifts. He’s given us many parts, yet one body (v. 20). In each of the members of the body, He’s deposited Himself. His spirit has mingled and mixed with ours, and He’s made us One Life. There is no division (v. 25). What is for one is for all, and just as our physical eye cannot function in the world without the rest of our physical body, so can no member of His Body function apart from others.

“Now we have received not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might understand the things freely given us by God. And we impart this in words not taught by human wisdom but taught by the Spirit, interpreting spiritual truths to those who are spiritual. […] For who has understood the mind of the Lord so as to instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ (1 Corinthians 2:12-13;16).”

I’ve read these verses SO many times in my life. I missed something though. I read it with my individualistic westernized/American perspective. When I read the word “we” I read “me and you.” That may sound like the same thing, but it’s really not. “We” is “US together” and “together WE.” Together, we – the ekklesia, the local assembly of the Body of Christ – find the mind of Christ. The many members each bring a piece of His mind, and together we find the fullness of the mind of Christ.

“So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind.  Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped,but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross.” (Philippians 2:1-8)

This is how it happens. We complete his joy by being of the same mind, Christ’s mind. We are a new creation, the Bride. We share One Life, that is Christ’s Life. We have the same Love, who is Christ. Through Love, we come together in full accord and with Christ’s mind… a mind that is bigger than any individual can find on their own. We come together with humility, listening to each other, and counting others as more significant than ourselves, and seeking the interest of the Whole – the One Life. This One Mind is OURS (not mine and yours – OURS – us together) and we find it as we empty ourselves at the cross, becoming a servant. We find it as we daily choose to die to ourselves and take up the cross of Christ (Luke 9:23-24). We find it as we lose our individual lives, to gain His life as the Body of Christ – His expression on the earth today, many members united under One Head.

In organic church life, we’ve discovered the beauty and the essentiality of recognizing the piece of His Mind contained in each of our brothers and sisters. We seek after it in each other like treasure. We together explore and discover where the Head, Christ, is taking us as One Body. We are united in the same mind and the same judgment, which is His.

“I appeal to you, brothers, by the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree, and that there be no divisions among you, but that you be united in the same mind and the same judgment.” (1 Corinthians 1:10)

And so, we seek to agree, to come together in unity not in the flesh, but in the Spirit.

Leadership is realized in a lot of practical and beautiful ways as we share His Life, with this as the constant underlying source.

Next week, I’ll share some examples of the practical and beautiful ways we’ve seen this happen. The following week, I’ll look at some church history on the subject of leadership.

In case you missed them here are links to the previous posts in this series:
How would you define the organic church that you’re a part of? [Click here if you missed it]”
“What are the goals, purposes, strengths, and weaknesses of organic church life/Body Life? [Click here if you missed it!]”

Q & A #2 // Organic Church Life

Last week, I responded to the question, “How would you define the organic church that you’re a part of? This week…

Q: What are the goals, purposes, strengths, and weaknesses of organic church life/Body Life? {I’ll use those terms interchangeably.}

A: My initial response to this question is a very short and simple answer.

The goal is Christ.
The purpose is Christ.
The strength is Christ.
The weaknesses are our flesh.

That is the most honest answer I can come up with, and yet I know it’s too simple to be any sort of explanation, so I’ll try to expound on a few areas where I see this played out.

1. Christ is the head of the body, the church. I’m not sure when I learned that truth, but it’s certainly one I’ve been familiar with for a long time. I think we (believers) all would be quick to affirm it. It certainly is clear in Scripture:

“And he put all things under his feet and gave him as head over all things to the church, which is his body, the fullness of him who fills all in all.” – Ephesians 1:22-23

Christ is the authority and the source. He is over all things. He fills all in all. We, the church, are His fullness expressed on the earth today.

I guess that in the past this has been something I clung to as a theological truth, and now, much more than ever before, it’s an experiential reality.  He moves us. He directs us. He connects us. He unites us.

That’s one of the things I view as a strength (and purpose and goal).

I’d love to somehow put this experience on the page for you to absorb, but my writing skills don’t go that far. As I said in my last post, you really have to experience it to know it. I’m not saying that you’ve not experienced it. I really don’t know. I’m just sure that in my church experience, Christ as head has never been this real and tangible to me. And I have to tell you, it’s breathtaking.

2. We, brothers and sisters in Christ, are new creations. The old you and I have passed away, and the new (Christ in us) has come (2 Corinthians 5:17). Again, I’ve known and experienced this in my life but the experience of this reality has exponentially increased within Body Life.

We are dead in our trespasses and sins. Dead! We have all been made alive in Christ, raised up in Christ, seated in heavenly places with Christ (Ephesians 2:1-13). This is a spiritual reality. Who we are in the spirit IS who we are.

We lose our own life, to gain His. Being intimately joined with brothers and sisters in community life, you absolutely MUST continually lose your own life. It doesn’t work when we hold on to our individual selves. We are One.

I’ve never seen that play out more beautifully than I have in organic church life. My brothers and sisters in this body continually affirm and call out each other’s identity in Christ, our new creations. Thus, when someone has forgotten who they are, when one or some of us are clinging to some parts of our individual lives, our true life in Christ is revealed to us through the Body. I treasure that immensely and desire it for all my brothers and sisters, near and far.

3. Along those lines is where weakness comes in. We all still have flesh and our flesh is not at all pretty. Living intimately in community, joined together in Christ, we get to see each other’s flesh rearing its ugly head – up close and personal.

We’re a diverse group of people with a variety of backgrounds. When it comes to things other than Christ, we have very different outlooks. And yet, we’ve chosen to walk together through all the thick and thin of life.

Sometimes flesh offends flesh.

We have to get over that.

It is not always fun and sometimes it’s downright painful.

There have been and will be seasons in which we do that well. There have been and will be seasons that we do that poorly.

But I believe this is a primary example of our weakness being His strength. We must depend on Him. We must bring our selves and our agendas to the cross.

4. In organic church life, every member functions. This is a beautiful reality that I’d also consider a significant strength. I’m going to leave it to discuss more extensively in answering the next question: “How does leadership work?” {I’ll likely end up doing multiple posts on that.} Stay tuned.

In the meantime, I’d love to hear from you. How would you describe your own churches goals, purposes, strengths, and weaknesses?  

Q & A #1 // Organic Church Life

As mentioned in my last post, I’ll be responding to some questions about organic church life here over the weeks to come. I hope you enjoy the conversation.

Q: How would you define the organic church that you’re a part of?

A: I’ve been writing and erasing answers to this question for a while now. The truth is, I can’t “define” it. That might make some people uncomfortable, but I now find it immeasurably beautiful and full of truth and LIFE.

I can’t define it because… Well, how would you define yourself? Think about it. Really, think about it. What makes you different from every other person on the earth? What makes you the same?

It’s hard, right? The best I could do is come up with a description but every description falls very short of defining me. To understand who and what I am, you’d really just need to experience me and then keep experiencing me.

The same is true here. So, I’ll tell you some things that describe who we are as a Body (and realize that it falls very short of defining us)…

{In no particular order…}

  • We are a local expression of the Body of Christ – a living, breathing, moving, and always changing being.

  • We are a diverse group of people united under the headship of Christ. We are not united under a set of doctrines, practices, or leaders.

  • We choose to individually lay down our opinions and wills and to discover together the mind of Christ.

  • We are learning together to live by Christ’s life and to express Him in everything we do, individually and corporately.

  • We have no clergy/laity divide. Every member of the body functions and participates in our meetings. Leadership always exists but it is not hierarchical. It comes from every member of the body at different times in a very fluid manner. Pastoring and teaching are functions in the body, rather than offices.

  • We don’t and won’t have a “church building.” We have met in different places (clubhouses, a gym, in homes) in different seasons.

  • We live in community with one another on a daily basis and we gather for planned corporate meetings weekly.

There are some really great books out there about organic expressions of church (ekklesia) written by people who have been experiencing it for a lot longer than I have/or who experienced it at different points in history. I can recommend some to you if you’re interested. For now, I’ll leave you with a few quotes from the first book I read on the subject.

Institutional churches are a lot like trains. They are going in a certain direction, and they will continue in that direction for a good long time even if all hands try to make them stop. As with trains, the options for turning the direction of institutional churches are limited at best. If a switch or siding is available, the train could turn. Otherwise, it just follows its tracks. So everyone aboard had best hope that he is on the right train headed in the right direction.

Organic churches, like those in the New Testament, are different. They are not trains, but groups of people out for a walk. These groups move much more slowly than trains-only several miles per hour at the fastest. But they can turn at a moment’s notice. More importantly, they can be genuinely attentive to their world, to their Lord, and to each other.

– Frank Viola. Reimagining Church: Pursuing the Dream of Organic Christianity (p. 19). Kindle Edition.

The church we read about in the New Testament was “organic.” By that I mean it was born from and sustained by spiritual life instead of constructed by human institutions, controlled by human hierarchy, shaped by lifeless rituals, and held together by religious programs.

– Frank Viola. Reimagining Church: Pursuing the Dream of Organic Christianity (p. 32). Kindle Edition.

Stated simply, the first-century church knew no sustaining influence other than the life of the Holy Spirit. It didn’t rely on a clergy-led, man-programmed, humanly planned, institutionally fueled system to preserve its momentum.

– Frank Viola. Reimagining Church: Pursuing the Dream of Organic Christianity (p. 63). Kindle Edition.

Next time, I’ll answer the 2nd part of the question: “What are the goals, purposes, strengths, and weaknesses?” 

He will show me. // what we are doing and why

When I came back from living in China, I knew the Lord was calling me OUT of church as I’d known it, but I had no idea what that would mean, until one day…

I was sitting outside of one of my favorite coffee shops in San Diego, reading a book on my kindle, called “Reimagining Church” by Frank Viola. I was reading “Chapter 2: Reimagining the Church Meeting.” At the end of the chapter there is a section titled, “What Does it Look Like Today?” As I clicked through those pages, something was happening in my spirit. I wiped a drop of water off of my kindle screen, and then another. I looked up into the sky. There were no clouds. “Where did those drops come from?” I thought to myself, and then I felt them. Tears, streaming down my face.

Have you ever done that? Cried without being conscious of doing so? It was an overwhelming experience. I had to put my kindle down and close my eyes.

This is it, isn’t it?
This is why I’m back?
This is what You have for me?

Yes, my child.
This – my bride – is my passion.
It is why you live.
It is why you are back.
It is what I have for you.
It is what you have for me.

How will I find it?
Is it really POSSIBLE?

In Me, everything is possible, my dear.
I will show you.
Just trust me.
Walk with me.
I will take you there.

I kept my eyes closed for a while, just soaking in the glory of the moment.

He will show me.
He will show me.

And He has. Ohh, He has.

Today, I sit in a coffee shop 2,030 miles away from where I was that day. {Yes, I did actually just google map it.} I moved here 1.5 years ago to be part of an “organic church” body.

It is more glorious than I dreamed and I’d like to start telling you more about it here. My goal in sharing is really not to convince you that “organic church” is what you need to be doing, nor is my goal to convince you that what you are currently doing is not what the Lord has for you. That’s not for me to decide. Christ is more than able to move our minds and hearts when and how He desires, and I’m learning more and more to trust Him to do so. I simply desire to express Christ, and to share how I have experienced/am experiencing Him here.

A while back, a dear friend of mine sent me a list of questions about what we are doing and why. I meant to answer sooner, but I suppose it just wasn’t time. I’m going to start using her questions as springboards for conversation here. Along the way, if you have questions, feel free to ask them and I’ll do what I can to answer.