Archive for June, 2011

June 30, 2011

my hope comes from…

I write myself notes of various kinds. Partially because I like notes – because I like words. Partially because I need help remembering things. One note that’s been on my wall for a few months asks me a question that I need to remember the answer to: “Where does my hope come from?

Today I read this:

Each morning that greets me is full of hope
Not because I am successful at what I am doing,
Or because the people near me appreciate me,
Or because circumstances are easy,
But because God is, and he is my Father.
 To look at the morning any other way
Is to believe a lie.
To live in hope is to live in truth;
To live in truth is to bring him glory;
To bring God glory in my daily living
Is the highest form of worship.

[Lane, Timothy S. (2008). How People Change (p. 222). New Growth Press.]

… a reminder of where my hope comes from. It’s not from you and how much you like me or respect me. It isn’t found in any relationship. It’s not from my job and it has nothing to do with where I live.  It’s not determined by the ease from which things come together.

My hope comes from God and from knowing God as my Father… knowing Jesus as my Savior… being filled with the Spirit.

The way I live should reflect that… the attitude I walk through each day with should reveal that I believe that…
It doesn’t always.
But I’m learning…

June 27, 2011

today included but was not limited to

Today included but was not limited to:

  • sipping coffee while the reading words of Isaiah
  • listening to “Farther Along” on repeat
  • going to get food from “the fried rice man”
  • watching Modern Family with my “family” and my brother
  • doing work for an online course I have to take
  • having my hair straightened by a friend
  • straightening the hair of my friend
  • holding my favorite baby
  • reading When Helping Hurts
  • going to the eye doctor about my most recent contact prescription being wrong only to find out that he labeled them “rigt” and “lift” when he meant “lift” and “rigt” (I should have known.) (But how cute that he TRIED to use English!)
  • having a dinner with my girls that almost made me cry at about 7 different moments.
  • being the late arriving character at a murder mystery dinner where I played the role of a feng shui decorator of a rich old man.
  • playing my favorite game – psychologist. (If you’ve never played with me… we should play!!!)
  • going out for street food and milk tea at 10:30 at night.
  • saying, “oh my goodness!!!!!!! there are STARS!!!!!!!!!!!!”
  • making everyone walk up to the roof to look at the stars!
  • writing a goodbye letter to one of my girls and weeping over the pages.
  • enjoying some brother friendship (see picture)
June 26, 2011

His EVER BEAUTIFUL thing | “Farther Along” by Josh Garrels

Life can be hard.
You know that. I know that.
Some days… some moments…
I can have so many… ”WHY God?!?!” thoughts
But I have to trust…I have to remember
God is here and God is there.
WORKING…. Doing His EVER BEAUTIFUL thing.
And in the end… All of the things that make me think my ”WHY God?!?!?” thoughts…
Will make sense to me and not only that but
I’ll see beauty in them.
Because the Most High God writes beautiful stories…
and He creates mosaics from the broken pieces our lives and our world are FULL of.
So, when I don’t see and can’t understand…
I can and I should choose to smile, to laugh, and to LIVE
knowing that He’s doing GOOD.

BECAUSE

That’s Who He is
and
What He does.

This song reminds me of that. You should listen to it. And then listen to it at least 3 more times. In a row. And soak in the truth that whatever makes you ask WHY today will make sense to you when you are Farther Along. You will understand why. “So, cheer up my brothers, live in the sunshine. We’ll understand this, all by and by.” (Click here to read all of the lyrics.)


(If the video doesn’t show up – go here.)

AND if you like this… you can download the whole album (Love & War & The Sea In Between by Josh Garrels) for free, HERE. You’re welcome.

June 24, 2011

When Helping Hurts | read together ch. 3

Let’s (finally) talk about Chapter 3 of When Helping Hurts: How to Alleviate Poverty Without Hurting the Poor and Yourself by Brian Fikkert and Steve Corbett.

In this chapter the authors give us a definition of poverty alleviation.

Poverty alleviation is the ministry of reconciliation: moving people closer to glorifying God by living in relationship in right relationship with God, with self, with others, and with the rest of creation.

I love that definition. I love that it encompasses the whole person. As Christ’s ambassadors we are called into the ministry of reconciliation. That includes helping with material needs but it also includes dealing with the relational side of people’s lives. It’s messy and it’s hard. There’s no quick easy fix. In fact, there’s no sure fix at all. They remind us throughout the chapter that “the fall really did happen” and because of that, on this side of eternity, there will always be brokenness; that doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t do all that we can to participate in bringing hope and healing and HELP to those in need of it. God has made it clear that we are to persist in participating in those things until He puts an end to it all, and we must remember that we are ALL broken and in need God’s saving grace.

Our relationship to the materially poor should be one in which we recognize that both of us are broken and that both of us need the blessing of reconciliation. Our perspective should be less about how we are going to fix the materially poor and more about how we can walk together, asking God to fix both of us.

But part of our striving is also to fall on our knees every day and pray, “Lord, be merciful to me and to my friend here, because we are both sinners.” And part of our striving means praying every day, “Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven, for without you we cannot fix our communities, our nations, and our world.”

I love the emphasis they place on helping the whole person.

The goal is to see people restored to being what God created them to be: people who understand that they are created in the image of God with the gifts, abilities, and capacity to make decisions and to effect change in the world around them; and people who steward their lives, communities, resources, and relationships in order to bring glory to God.

When I read those lines… I think about the country I’ve been living in for the past year… I wrote a post a couple months ago about how so many here do not believe they have any ability to effect change in the world around them because of what they are taught within the system they were born into. So many do not know, understand, or believe that they were created in the image of God and that he has given them gifts and abilities that he desires to see them change the world with. I’ve had the privilege of teaching some this year and watching their eyes open to the possibilities of influencing. I think about India… where Hinduism teaches caste and people believe that the level they were born at is the level they must stay and that their value is determined by their position at birth. So many live hopelessly, believing they have no worth, not recognizing that they were made by a Father who loves them and wants them to know Him and to live for His purposes. I think about a friend in America… who thinks that the mistakes she has made in the past have determined her worth now and in the future. She thinks that God hates her and is punishing her financially and relationally for all that she’s done. She believes that she will never be able to “succeed” and that no one will ever be able to love her. She thinks that the very broken representations of love she has experienced in her life are the only forms of love she’ll ever know. She doesn’t see who God made her to be or how she could ever do anything to glorify Him. She thinks she lost her chance. I think about so many people in so many places… who need help learning how to relate to God, to people, and to the world… the way God desires us all to. I think about how their lack of knowing the truth influences material poverty. I think about the layers and layers of heart issues involved in helping people in these types of situations, before/during/after we address the material issues that we sometimes recognize first.

In discussing how to help Fikkert and Corbett tell us that we should begin with helping people to have a proper worldview (understanding of themselves, God, others, and the world around them). They then give us 5 things we should remember, recognizing that TRULY helping is rarely a simple thing and sometimes it is more complicated than just correcting their/our understanding.

[1] having the right concept about how a relationship is supposed to work does not automatically make the relationship work well. …  Healthy relationships require transformed hearts, not just transformed brains.

[2] Satan and his legions are at work in the world and have the capacity and desire to damage our relationships. Even if all humans had the correct worldview, Satan would still be on the prowl, attacking us and the rest of creation, thereby causing “poverty” in many manifestations (Eph. 6:12).

[3] one of the results of the fall is that the entire creation is cursed (Gen. 3:17-19), meaning that crops fail and tsunamis happen even when our worldviews are not faulty.

[4] other people sometimes actively work against or undermine the efforts of an individual poor person to change his situation.

[5] most of the systems in which the materially poor live—systems that contribute to their poverty—are outside of their control. Transforming the worldview of the materially poor will not transform these systems, a point that will be elaborated on in the next section.

Conclusion: This life of helping, offering hope, being ambassadors that carry the ministry of reconciliation is complex and requires faithfulness, diligence, patience, deliberate work, massive amounts of God’s grace, and … is gonna get messy. Because we are messy. They are messy. And let’s just be reminded again – the fall really did happen.

So there we are. Now we each have to find a way to deal with it and do our job. I’m excited, though intimidated… but thrilled that God has chosen to use me.

June 23, 2011

abnormal // normal

I’m supposed to be taking a nap because I’m really tired – went to bed late and got up early. But instead, I’m laying in my bed feeling a bit overwhelmed. I think I want to cry, but I have no tears. It’s not one specific thing. It’s life. And my life feels – so – abnormal in some moments and – very - normal in others. And maybe that’s hard too.

This afternoon, I went to meet a kid on the basketball courts. He sat on the steps waiting for me as I approached, he looked rather overwhelmed and explained he had a very important exam in an hour. I introduced him to my brother and he shook his hand. Then he gave me a gift he made and a class picture we took early on Sunday morning. I’m not even SUPER close to this kid, but I really enjoyed teaching him and his class. When he said “goodbye” the weight of that word hit me like a ton of bricks. I do not like it.

Why do “goodbyes” seem to be such a steady part of life? – at least mine. If it’s not me leaving, it’s someone else. I guess all of my “goodbyes” wouldn’t be so lame feeling if my life wasn’t also full of love… and that’s certainly something to be grateful for!

Last night was the last time, for now, I will see one of my very dear friends (- the one who wrote me a letter I talked about in the last post). We had dinner and gave her letters we (Brittany and I)’d written her, took pictures and walked around. Then when it was time to part ways she, Brittany, and I huddled together and she told us she loves us and we said the same back… We couldn’t say “goodbye” so we decided we’d say “see you later.” She’s downloaded skype and has been using it already – so we know we’ll get to see her face on our computers! And there is a good chance we’ll get to see her again face to face someday in the next couple of years… but… ::sigh::

When we walked away from our “see you later” I told Brittany that it didn’t really feel real… but today it does. Today, I know she’s not here anymore. I know I am here for 1 more month but I won’t get to see my dear friend anymore. I won’t get to see my students for much longer. It’s all wrapping up… 

But there’s still a month… and there’s still more to do… and my brother is here and experiencing this side of the world and this kind of life for the first time… And I’m getting to see it some through his fresh eyes… and I’m thankful…

I don’t like all the “goodbyes” and “see you laters” but I’m also looking forward with joy to the “hellos” and the “great to see you agains” that will come when I switch sides of the world again. I’m excited, though also overwhelmed, at the thought of the adventures that will come and the life that waits to be figured out.

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